Tuesday, March 30, 2010

had my last presentation today, Macro
so fast, and it's the end of the sem dy..
feels...a bit weird
i have no problems with partings
but this time, it feels really different
seems as if everything is......different
life goes on i guess

my Macro presentation was scary
barely slept for two days
have half fear and half confidence,
i aimed for the best
and...is it a relief?
i expected thousands of question by teacher for my part
yet, i only got one...
the part which i was rather messed up
feeling uncertain, i got the best comment from my friend
she told me that i did a great job,
which she also had the same part, and also having difficulties explaining it
i should be happy right?
i am happy
but in part of me, there's still come uncertainty
feels as if i could make it better
feels as if something's missing...

another thing i would like to touch on?
is the ability to feel other people's feelings and emotions,
as well as to feel sad for them a bad thing?
i read it from a blog
and the person seem to take the ability to be sad as a bad thing...
is it wrong?
to think that his perceptions of life nearly made me ended mine
is it again, wrong?
i was down in despair by his perceptions of life
but then again, i'm grateful for being able to have such ability
he made it sound as if i'm the one who's having depression by having such ability
what i would like to wonder is,
is he the one who's having a depression?
or in need of external forces to bring the happiness in him?
i wonder...