Sunday, October 30, 2011
finally, after 5 months of coll, i'm having my long desired break
tho it's only just a week
before the full battle begins again
this break, i'm not really sure whether it's a good thing, or bad
once again i'm at divergence
with the past haunting me
unsure of what i have to do
i've avoided enough
i know it's time to face it but why...
i still can't seem to take it
but how long do i still need?
it's so tiring that i feel like sleeping forever
or a getaway from everything in my world
for once and for all...
i'm disappointed once again
blinded by my own unrealistic dreams and hopes
i'm again repeating my mistakes
something which i've told myself again and again to not repeat
if only i'm smart and willful enough...
♥ alexis at 10:00 PM
Monday, October 10, 2011
my anger is just simmering below the surface
i may act like nothing is going on
but if only you know the truth
i'm not going to start anything now
afterall, it's a trial for me...
♥ alexis at 11:52 PM
Saturday, October 1, 2011
have u ever been so tired that you just feel like leaving everything and walk off?
this is what i feel right now
for the whole day i've been unproductive
nothing can get my energy up
yet the constant nagging thought that there are more to accomplish is there
why aren't anyone helping to do anything at all?
why can't anyone reply for god's sake?
is there a contract written that i have to do it all?
i looked into your eyes yesterday
i saw something that i thought i will never see again
now i'm all disturbed
yet there's nothing that i can do
afterall, as you're growing up
♥ alexis at 5:51 PM