Sunday, May 27, 2012
why do i feel so unrest?
it's no longer the panic attack
this feels worse than that
am i really thinking too much?
She is coming back soon
do you realise that?
how do you feel?
i guess there's such thing as a delete button
cause i can no longer find you anymore
not after what i've done out of curiosity
is it really time?
is this the time?
♥ alexis at 11:14 PM
Saturday, May 26, 2012
i wait and wait
i don't even know what i'm waiting for
i just wish for time to pass by quickly
yet time is already passing by very quickly
i just wish i could get busy, more motivated
life feels very empty right now
i'm aware of what i have to do
yet things feel meaningless
life feels meaningless
what is life?
♥ alexis at 8:42 PM
Friday, May 25, 2012
the past 3 days have been peaceful
it feels as if i've moved to another world
new people, new situations, new life
but today, i have to face reality again
everything feels so raw
where is the meaning of life?
what is life?
i no longer know what to think
what to do...
goodluck studying :)
♥ alexis at 4:54 PM
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
life is as unpredictable as ever
emotions have been a roller coaster
i discovered things that i should have long ago
i guess it is important to be cautious
cause twice, i thought i'd go with the flow
things exceeded my expectations
and i was blown off twice
going through the same roller coaster
i've learnt enough
and i wish that there's no other victims anymore
may this be your last
♥ alexis at 12:05 AM
Monday, May 14, 2012
it has been nearly a month
i've been directly depressed for nearly a month
right now, today, i feel a lot better
i finally know who my friends are,
and who actually cares for me
once again, i was let down at an inconvenient moment
with assignment due dates and exams,
i can hardly find anyone who care to care
i hope i can continue moving forward with my life
because this is what i want
i need to be strong
thank you to my friends for being there for me :)
p/s: i don't think you'll remember my blog, but remember this:
you lost a person who loves you.
i lost a person who does not know how to appreciate me
♥ alexis at 7:21 PM
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
it has been three weeks
or maybe i have been feeling this way for months
but why does the nagging pain continues
worsening each day?
i thought it was over
but another wave washes pass me today
hate myself for being so weak
it's over, yes, it is
i'm aware of reality
but i can't stop the thoughts, the feelings, the pain
i feel so discouraged that it's eating me all up
yes, the reality is there
yes, i'm over it
but my heart isn't
cause that's the only explanation why it hurts...
life goes on eventually
the pain will subside
time is all it needs
but somehow, somewhat, i do not have the time
i have no patience
♥ alexis at 10:53 PM
Sunday, May 6, 2012
numb and lost
there's nothing that can describe my feelings right now
what am i suppose to do?
there's a lot that i have to do
but none that i have the feel to do
everything seems so distant to me right now
everything seems like a dream
pain, is something indescribable
cause no one feels the same way as i do..
♥ alexis at 9:07 PM
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
without meaning to, it came to a stop
without any preparations, it ended
i understand that it is a tiring process
but why give up when we've not tried our best?
there's are too many factors that contributes to such problem
if there's a need, there's a way to solve it
but where is your cooperation?
you decided to give up
just like that, you give up
i don't know what to make of it other than being upset and thinking about it day and night
i'm not ready to let go yet
it's all misunderstandings
why can't we just work it out?
just a last chance, a last effort...
♥ alexis at 3:55 PM