Thursday, September 29, 2011
after four months,once again, i've put my life on hold
with the hope of something happening
but once again, i'm disappointed
was there ever a chance of truce between us?
sadly, without trust, nothing can be said anymore
once again, i feel foolish enough with myself
what was i thinking?
i'm back to square one
but once again, i have to start back anew
it's time to concentrate on my studies again
holiday time is over
assignment due dates are killing me
time is all i need for everything
i'll have to learn to be a chameleon :)
♥ alexis at 7:29 PM
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
i hate myself...very muchpeople like me should just disappear from the world forever...
♥ alexis at 7:50 PM
Monday, September 26, 2011
would you be hurt by lies,or would you be hurt from not being told about something?
i don't know which is worse
what i know is that i don't like either one
is there a reason for not revealing something?
either it's a secret, or it is a means of hiding for protection
somehow or rather, i guess it's a secret
for not telling, it means that the matter is of a deep consideration to you
and it is inappropriate to tell due to the fear and uncertainty
i'm disappointed
it makes things more unclear to me
again, my decisions are clouded
nothing ever seem to be right for us
for misunderstandings appear most often
and the revenge goes on
i've thought of stopping after so long
but i'm forced to walk on again
most often i'm forced to push things that are most dear to me away
and this time, though i know,
i have no choice
the decision is not mine alone
*some things are best left unknown, for curiosity kills the cat*
♥ alexis at 11:37 PM
Saturday, September 24, 2011
it has been one month and four days since you moved onlife has been hectic in this one month
with finals and mid terms, and now assignments,
i feel as if i'm going crazy
situation worsen with presence of politics and now,
arguments with my best friend
things are not going smoothly at all
suddenly, everything that im controlling is bursting out
i'm gasping for air
i've tolerated enough
my resolution to stay focus on my studies have been waivered by two situations
it's time to leave everything again
if people can be selfish, i guess i have to start being that too
but i hate that, i really do
i don't like the way im turning into
yet certainly, the past is equally terrible
it has been a huge disappointment this month
i miss you
i just wish those damn dogs didn't take you....
i need a revenge but i can't do it
i have no rights to deal with another person's life
sorry...
♥ alexis at 1:51 AM