Friday, April 30, 2010

results came out yesterday
and...i'm very happy with it :)
i got more than expected
but i guess scholarship is out of the question
my mum asked, whether i would like to take the loan
if i know that she would ask me this question,
maybe i would not have studied foundation
and pursue the dream that i wanted...
and would not have known that people that i know...
and will destroy my life...

it has been very long since i last wrong down my experience on things
it has been nearly a year...a year since......
if only you know how i feel...

You told me
It’s a guy’s thing to lead a girl that he liked through a wonderful journey together
You promised me
That you will not hurt me because you know that I’ve been hurt badly in the past
Through your words
I believed you, trusted you
I decided to let you be my guy
But
Everything was false
You forgot what you said to me
I thought I could bear it
But I couldn’t lie to myself anymore
I know I can’t keep lying to myself
Hurting myself again and again
But what should I do?
You refused to let me go
Ignoring the scars and cracks in the relationship
You hurt me again and again
And I cried again and again
If you'd know how much I’ve been hurt
Please take pity on me
Let me go
Cause I think I’ve grown tired of you
And fell in love with another person……