Saturday, October 30, 2010

Don't know why but seem to have been feeling trapped for long
I don't know whether it's the stress that made me feel as if there's a black cloud above me
Or that it's the black cloud above me that made me feel stress
I can no longer smile nor laugh sincerely as I'm constantly stress out
Not only on my life, but also on studies
I don't know whether it's the stress that made me unable to concentrate in studies
Or that I've lost the ability and interest in studies
Growing up isn't easy
I miss those times where I can express out all my feelings easily and happily
I miss last year, where I can be myself and life is all about excitement
Tho there are mistakes and troubles but it makes life meaningful, wonderful
I miss those time where I can act wildly and enjoying myself
Rather than this time where I've kept myself on a tight leash
Forcing myself to be disciplined and learn to keep to myself
Life feels so boring and stressful
I miss those times where there are friends where you can talk to about anything,
Not now, in this grown up world where everything is about manipulating
And no one bothering about anything other than themselves, neglecting others
Feels like a trapped soul in this world right now and then
I miss the freedom that I have in life
Many friends could not understand me
And that's because they refuse to see the way I see things
I need excitement, not gossips
I need fun and conversations, not people asking how am I and constantly nagging then ignoring me
I don't need people to come to me only when they need me, I hate that
I need my space at times, yet I don't like to talk much about my life
I just want my excitement, my life back...