Saturday, January 15, 2011

my life has been jumbled up lately
friends has been finding me for advices
i gave them what i can give from my experiences
i help them whenever i can
feeling lucky in a way that i could help
and many told me that i'm lucky to have what i'm having now
but my life has taken a turn
i'm all lost and wrecked
i no longer know how to feel and think
i just want a time of my own to sort things out
in the mean time, who is going to help me?

all the time i have intuitions which i partly believe in
cause i believe life is up to me and intuitions are not 100% true
recent events had let me realised that my intuitions are getting sharper
yet all these intuitions that i've got, aren't exactly great
what should i do?

life sucks in a way where you're expecting the worse
yet at the moment, there's nothing you can do to prevent it
how i wish someone could understand me, help me
i do need some help sometimes
but i can't go to my friends as they are too burdened by their problems
tho they might have solved most of it by now
but none would like to be indulged in problems again
and there's no way i'll be burdening them
so...who's gonna help me?

results weren't up to what i've expected
i can't believe i got a C+ for my Macro
how can this happen when i was the highest for my Mid Terms,
and during Finals i could do it well?
for Micro i could understand as i didn't know how to do anything for Finals
but Macro??
i'm tempted to ask for a remark, which will cost rm100
friends have told me that it's useless
but i believe that doing so might make a change
what should i do?
i don't even dare to let my parents know
for recently i've been blamed on something that was not my fault
and has been treated like shit since then
what should i do?

i just need a place
where i can be by myself, to lick my wounds
and to live by my own freedom
feels as if i've been boxed up
feels so tired and upset
who's gonna help me?