Sunday, May 8, 2011
they told me, it's a wise decision
they told me, i should leave
they told me, it's what i ever wanted since long time
they told me, it's useless to regret
i told myself, it's a wise decision
i told myself, i should leave
i told myself, it's for the best
i told myself, it's useless to regret
i told myself, that if you really give up, i will give up too
i'm coping, and i'm really coping
it'd be all lies if i were to tell you that i'm not hurt
it'd be all lies if im actually smiling in front of you
it'd be all lies if i'm telling you that i'm actually happy
reading back my posts
i realised that hurt, comes in all different ways
being a person whom console others over their pain,
my friend now repays me by consoling me back
yes, it is useless to think back
yes, it is useless to regret
yes, it is useless to doubt my decision
yes, it is useless to think of 'if'
i'm sorry i could not be the perfect gf that you wanted
i'm sorry i can't be the understanding person that you want me to be
i'm sorry i can't be the person whom i promised you to be
i'm sorry for causing you all the pain
i'm sorry for being selfish
i'm sorry for giving you the chance
thanks for all the memories that you gave me
thanks for being there for me
thanks for understanding my dilemma and problems
thanks for being with me for 1.5 years
i guess it's time to move on
if everyone is moving on, why should i stay?
if you're moving on,
there's no longer a reason for me to stay anymore
maybe, i'm finally obtaining my freedom
maybe, i could have a better future
from now on, without anymore obligations
life will be lonely from now on
i no longer have my friends
i no longer have a boyfriend
i no longer studying the same course as my friends
i guess i shall be independent once again....
i guess it's time for me to walk the journey alone once again...
♥ alexis at 9:10 PM